It has been 12 months today since I suffered from Cauda equina syndrome (CES) and I’ve been contacted by several people who have followed my progress. I wanted to provide an update for the people who comes to my blog and read about the condition, so they know it isn’t always doom and gloom.
As I’ve mentioned previously on my blog, my lifestyle has almost returned to what it was before CES. I work full time (my working week is 50-60 hours long) in a special school, where I teach science lessons and am the assistant head. I have been fortunate in receiving support from work so I have made to measure seating which makes a huge difference, and I have an electric desk which I can raise to standing height if required. I have an ultrabook laptop which means it is light and portable – all these adjustments were recommended by Access to Work when they carried out my workplace assessment.
Some of the nerve damage has repaired itself, and although I still suffer from loss of sensation down the back of my legs, it isn’t as pronounced as it was a year ago. I can also run now (albeit slowly) which I couldn’t do last year as my legs didn’t obey my brain when I tried!
I don’t suffer much pain, although I do get twinges in my toes (it feels like someone is stood on my little toe) which my consultant tells me is classic S1 damage. I’m due to have another MRI scan tomorrow to see if this is nerve regeneration or further nerve damage. Usually any pain I feel comes from sitting in the wrong position when I have to stand up – I’m getting better at making myself sit up straight too!
The only aspect that hasn’t shown that much recovery is bladder control and the need to practice intermittent self catheterisation. Fortunately after a year of doing this it is second nature to the point I don’t think about it much in my home/work life (although I do have to plan more carefully when I am going to be away from home for extended periods of time).
Thanks once again to all the people who have got in touch and I hope this post gives some hope to those of you who find yourself unfortunate enough to suffer from cauda equina syndrome.
Those people that know me well know I have a fondness for playing bingo on my iPad. I play a number of different bingo games on my tablet but always for ‘tokens’ that have no real value.
While using Facebook I came upon an ad for Paddypower bingo offering me a £30 credit if I deposited £5. There is a slight catch – the £5 has to be spent within 48 hours and the free credit is only valid for a week. I might not have signed up if I had read these terms and conditions before I joined but I rushed right in eager to play.
The first thing that struck me was that the bingo is nothing like proper bingo. It is more like playing bingo on a fruit machine since it is a totally passive experience. You can play up to 60 cards at one in some games and there is no way anyone but an octopus with superpowers could play 60 cards at once!
Some of the games are over in seconds, others last a little longer as you see who won the first line, two lines and then a full house. The software automatically moves those cards needing fewest numbers to the top of the screen and all the player does is sit and watch (regardless on whether you play on a flash-enabled browser or on your tablet).
The images show the game in simplified mode (just the numbers you need) and normal mode (proper bingo cards).
Because they realise the novelty of watching bingo cards dancing and changing position on the screen can only hold your attention for so long, Paddypower employ a number of chat hosts who post motivational messages in the chat room. I assume these people are employed on the basis of their personalities since their literacy and grammar skills appear not to have been tested during the interview process…
To make matters even worse I only received £20 bonus credit, not £30 as promised because I clicked through an affiliate link. Paddypower told me to chase them – even though I have no contact details and the link takes you straight to the PaddyPower signup page.
Would I recommend this to any of my bingo loving friends? Not a chance. If you like sitting in front of the screen chatting about the moderators shopping and watching your bingo cards shuffle themselves (with a marginally small chance of winning anything) then this might be for you. I did manage to win just over £1 with my £25 of gambling credit, but unfortunately the minimum withdrawal is £10 so unless you win £10 you have no choice but to gamble your winnings away.
I’ll stick to Bingo bash on the iPad/Facebook for my bingo kicks – at least I enjoy playing it!
I know a number of people find this website by searching for cauda equina syndrome (CES) and I thought it might be encouraging for them to post an update on how I’m getting on with my condition.
The good news is I haven’t been back to the consultant since I posted last – my six month open appointment is rapidly running out but I’m not worried. Apart from the odd tingle on a numb patch of leg or foot I don’t experience the pain that other CES sufferers do (at least at the moment). My phased return went without complication and I’m back at work full time. I’m fortunate that my teaching timetable is lighter than many because of my leadership role as assistant head. I’m also lucky that I get the chance to walk about a lot which is good for my back – as soon as I feel a twinge from too much sitting down I know to do a lap of the school!
I’m still using the catheters. On the suggestion of the occupational health service, school have purchased a locker for me to store my medical supplies where I need to use them. This saves having to run and get my bag when I need to visit the bathroom (women may be familiar with this problem). I mentioned in my last post changing the company I use for healthcare supplies (Charter healthcare owned by Coloplast) and I really can’t fault their service – as well as taking the fee for dispensing, they send me alcohol gel and wet wipes and even deliver to me at work.
I find myself using my stick less and less. My walking stick has become something of a security blanket. I feel self-conscious walking in busy places because the nerve damage means my calf muscles don’t work properly. Using a walking stick tells people there is a reason I have a slight wobble and it isn’t alcohol related! I keep a fold-up walking stick in my drawer at work just in case (although I haven’t used it yet) and I’m trying to wean myself off using one for longer walks. It follows that if I can walk miles over the course of a day at work without using one that I must be able to do so elsewhere.
I’m waiting on an access to work application for a full workplace assessment (occupational health suggested an electric height adjustable desk!) and I find that as long as I am sitting up nice and straight I am quite comfortable but if I don’t I soon get aches in my back.
I realise that each person who has CES is different but that doesn’t stop me wanting to talk to others who have had the condition. There are some excellent support groups on Facebook (with some frank and open conversations/questions) and more recently UK based charitable organisations have emerged to provide support.
I’m happy to talk to anyone about CES – if that’s you then leave me a message.